But it seemed like they didn’t. ... After triggering Tumblr’s security system twice, Javascript has prevailed and the old URLs should take you to the new site. I can’t wait to move away from the U.S. and go to England. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. I am Delphine Kanyandekwe and I am about to embark on a life-changing journey in Port-au-Prince, Haiti. I met with her today and she said: “Mme Delphine, I am not giving up. Yet, her story isn’t over, the process isn’t over yet. But once I did that, I found myself sinking deeper into self-condemnation. As that same question presented before me this evening as I sat in adoration room, fearing that me choosing to share about “trusting in Christ” instead of sharing on the “importance of community living” would bear less immediate fruits, all I could hear was these words…, “So I’ll give you every breath that I haveOh Lord, you can work miraclesAll that you need is my “Amen"”. When a guy hears his vocational call to the priesthood and accepts it, it is always (hopefully) a moment of great joy and celebration for not only him but for the Church. Success is a determination. But these thoughts and memories fail to comfort. the greatest thing in life is to know Him and to make Him known. It has become the norm not to reach completion. I am in Community because in all humility, I recognize and accept my brokenness and weakness, and I know that I cannot do life and live my faith journey by myself. But one spoke out to me as the text came in just when I was drafting the first few paragraphs of my new reflection piece on Community living. Funnily, an added point in the reflection I wrote about the five loaves and two fishes were just added this morning after asking a friend for his thoughts on improving the reflection - and this added point served to challenge me this evening. I desired to be loved for who I am, but was told how I needed to change. The Lord invites me now and again, to remember that I cannot live this faith journey alone. “Be loved. However, if instead of looking at the details like the different levels of Hell etc, you look at the Divine Comedy on the whole: it is a journey of spiritual growth and suffering across a surreal and confusing landscape separate from a normal existance, leading to a meeting with God, in order to save a loved one (in Dante’s case, this is his love Beatrice). Someone actually came up to me the other day as I was holding an information session and said: “Are you really going to do this? Honestly, I didn’t know why I was feeling this way. Yet amidst and flooded by all these fears, confusion and maybe even fatigue of having to wrestle with the decision and the call to give up the relationship, please know dear sister that God sees your struggling heart and that He loves you and longs to embrace you. His plans for you will satisfy you in ways that your own plans cannot even hope to come close for He knows the deepest desires planted in your heart. Make friends and make sure they know they matter. I know to surrender these thoughts to Jesus, yet at that moment, I can’t. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. And this is what God does with us; he looks at each of us as a unique, valuable and irreplaceable part of His creation. To Be Known and Loved. Have you ever felt that way? But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. For me, true success isn’t something that you can see on the outside, it is an inward expression, a sense of fulfillment, where you are proud of how far you’ve come and what you have accomplished. ❤️"An unshared life is not living. Would they forgive you for your deepest darkness? Once I found myself veering off course, to compensate I over-steer and over-correct and find myself even further from where I had initially intended to go! But then, I reached a silver lining. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God." Known and Loved. To Be Loved/To Be Alone. Everything continues to be so uncertain; will anything come out of this? I want to experience life to its fullest. I often get outraged at how hard life is, how much fighting is required to survive. Timothy Keller: “To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. As Winston Churchill said “Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts”. You dear Sister, have a very special place in my prayers – that the good Father in heaven will embrace you and block off all the lies that may come to you in this crossroads in your life where you are invited to surrender this relationship to Him, that He will remind you and assure you that He has great plans for you. I don’t know what is going to happen to this young woman. Your capacity to love and to choose is boundless, limitless. At least until my emotions got the better of me and I started tearing at my office desk. Be known. As I read the text message that came in, I started feeling agitated. In the past week, I chanced upon a blog post I had written in April 2015 as I googled images of the Carmelite monastery in Singapore. There are other brothers, Sisters, lovers and haters, The good and the bad Sinners and saints who should hear what you've told me, But I can chose to invest in people and focus on Haitians rather than on Haiti. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. the greatest thing in life is to know Him and to make Him known. It was in sitting before Him that I began to understand what root of the issue was. Ignore those many other voices that seek to paralyse you! Holiness consists simply in doing God’s will, and being just what God wants us to be. Thoughts of not being good enough, thoughts of just never being enough. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Definitely a very important and nerve-wracking week for them. He invites me to remember that I can only allow myself to be loved if I allow myself to be known. I am It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us." Ofcourse, to achieve that, i should work hard. Can’t I just do life with just you Jesus? As if I hadn’t already made enough of a fool of myself; I’m just going to let this train wreck keep on going. He revealed to me the source of my despair the past few weeks, and through Fr Jacques’ words, offered me consolation and encouragement. And we know that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose. The inclusiveness of God’s love doesn’t in the least diminish or take away the depth of his love for me. You know how when you were a little kid, and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. And as I sat in the adoration room frantically trying to come up with a new piece of reflection for this Saturday’s novena (according to the original theme set of “Community – how to live in Community”), all that was running through my mind was the song Five Loaves and Two Fishes by Corrinne May: “Take my five loaves and two fishes,do with it as you willI surrenderTake my fears, my inhibitions, all my burdens, my ambitionsYou can use it all to feed them all.”. Practice. Suddenly, these “failure” moments become onset for future success. is becoming real: I am moving to Haiti next week…Monday to be exact!!! It … What do you do about it? Nothing disguises being unknown more than being in a particular relationship for a long time. To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. It is hard to know what to say to reignite a sense of confidence, hope and faith in them. Something about the boundless sea before me calls out to me tonight. Here in Haiti, one can easily get discouraged and disheartened in front of amount of issues and problems that need to be addressed. Success is a determination. Meta: permalink; tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET? To say that I have a good grasp and control over my emotions would be a clear lie. In those moments, you realize how fragile everything is here. Success is failure sometimes. Love doesn’t have to be exclusive to be real. Together, the students are collectively telling a story that it is possible to finish high school, that hard work pays off, that no one can decide for you what you can and can’t do, only you have to decide for yourself. He calls out the things that are unique about each of us and He celebrates them. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us. Yet beneath that joy and happiness for these girls in entering the novitiate (to begin a more formal journey of consecrating their entire life to Christ), I felt a tinge of envy. After sharing her story, she said that she wanted to stop by her tell me that she still very much wanted to be a part of the program, she still really wanted to graduate from high school and she said: : “I don’t want what happened to me define me and determine the rest of my life. Sounds perfect Wahhhh, I don’t wanna. “Finir ce que j'ai commencé” (Finish what I started) is the motto on our high school completion brochure and our mission as Share Hope Foundation to provide very motivated factory workers with the opportunity to finish high school. I did this by typing a very serious, intense explanation of the reason why I made the statement, how it was in jest, and how I feel like I needed to be trusted more. How could I then allow myself to be loved, when I didn’t allow myself to be known? Powered by Tumblr. Here we have 40 students - working full-time, with responsabilities, financial struggles, health issues - all aiming at one goal: finishing high school. How could they have known me for me, if I didn’t give them the permission to come close to support me and be there for me? I cling on to the hope that just like the wave that begins in the midst of the sea, one day it reaches the shore. Yet you say your laws are different - that you rise and are transcendent over these laws. Make friends and make sure they know they matter. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. They also went over what the song meant and its relevance in our context. Two days before the exams, we still weren’t sure if all of the students would be added to the list on time to take their exams. The stories that they shared were heartbreaking and appalling; they are stories of abuse, shame and loss of dignity. Make friends and make sure they know they matter. I haven’t written a blog post in the long time….I apologize. To put things into context, this is the second time this week that I found myself reacting very defensively when people challenged me. I was inhibited by my insecurity of making the wrong choice now that two options were presented to me. Cling to Him who loves you. Maybe He is calling me elsewhere, somewhere which already has a proper congregation, a set charism. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. I believe I can soar, I see me running through that open door, I believe I can fly, I believe I can fly”. You are watching To Be Known is To Be Loved on Godtube.com the largest video sharing platform offering online Christian videos with faith-based, family friendly content. Would I choose to hand over my five loaves and two fishes, even without the promise that there will be immediate fruits, even if the multiplication does not happen immediately and before my eyes? and keep my eyes above the waves when oceans rise, 26 year old Catholic girl from Singapore striving to remain close to the heart of the lover of her soul, Jesus Christ. Mar 28. Although it had already been set as a theme for this weekend’s novena since last year, when the change in priests happened, a lot of things were in flux and uncertain as with any re-organization in companies. To say that I have a good grasp and control over my emotions would be a clear lie. 1.5M ratings 277k ratings See, that’s what the app is perfect for. I’m learning to claim that my true self is sacred and vulnerable, To allow just anybody in would be foolishness, But to lock it away afraid of being known, The Lord has already won the victory for me from my chains, He has already cast away the fears of abandonment and rejection, And continues to cast them away each time I fall, Sees me, knows me and still chooses to love me, He tells me that nothing dark within me would ever make him turn his back on me, The life of a disciple of Christ is one full of hope, But this hope and knowledge that I’m infinitely loved changes everything, Cause at the end of the day, no matter how dirty, weak, broken, unlovable I feel…, I know that no matter how many times I fail and fall. There is much hope to be His, and much hope for His kingdom. I hope that they have built stronger self-confidence and that regardless of what the test scores say, they believe that they can fly and will fly. Meta: permalink; tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET? And in the same post, I wrote about what it means to be holy and to pray to be holy. Discover more posts about not-loved. I can’t wait to move away from the U.S. and go to England. Indeed, our program not just about helping people graduate from high school, it’s not just about providing classes for them. Circumstances can be very overwhelming. And if you feel like you’ve failed, take a look at the process, look at how far you’ve come and what you’ve been through. I want to encourage my future students to not just be resilient but to be endurant, to start things and to complete them with purpose and a goal in mind. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. I pray that they won’t let their struggles get in the way of what they are trying to accomplish, that they won’t settle for status quo but believe they can achieve more and do more. You are worth so much more then you can imagine or allow yourself to believe. Would love to focus and be known for doing art someday. It would be probably very hard…and quite impossible. How can I help? Powered by Tumblr. Calling people by name points out their individuality and uniqueness. But my mind and heart can’t grasp that concept; instead, that desire for love ingrained so deeply within me seeks to grasp, to be territorial. You can feel sorry for this woman, and contemplate the sadness of her situation, and the pain that she has been walking through. As creative and passionate as we can be, the needs will always be greater than our capacity to address them. 23rd June 2014; 1 note Permalink; Tweet this; A TEXT POST. To be fully known and loved by God = Hard Truths and Ridiculous Grace. Sounds perfect Wahhhh, I don’t wanna. Remind them what’s true and invite them to do the same when you forget. Get excited, it's going to be a fun year!!! If … Can’t you see that those voices only seek to chain you? Do not allow the ignorance of church goers who only celebrate the vocation of the man who has chosen to give his life for church, and condemn you as a temptation, a distraction. All of the students are extremely special to me and I am looking forward to knowing more than their name as the year goes by, to invest in them, to walk alongside of them in their journey to finish high school and to celebrate the uniqueness that makes them who they are. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. You call me to open my palms in full surrender, in a posture to receive. Let me run back to town This is way too much for just me. Remind them what’s true and invite them to do the same when you forget. I’ve always been going in the same direction, but I have never known where I was going. He was committed, he was consistent, he had good grades throughout the school year and studied late every night. He calls us his beloved children, fearfully and wonderfully made, uniquely designed and the very apple of his eyes. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. Thankful that though I keep straying, the Lord continues to take me back and reach out for me again and again. He was confused and devastated, even thought he was cursed and would never be able to finish high school, ever. the stars are watching. Yet to fully receive and be loved by you, you call me to first trust in you; because only in trusting you and your abundant promises and love for me, can I open my palms in full vulnerability to allow myself to be chosen and loved by you. "To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. Lol”. Be loved. So last night, I spent two hours in the adoration room, and wrote up a piece of reflection on the multiplication of the five loaves and two fishes. || romans 8:28 Why do I even need relationships and friendships? Resilience to me looks a bit like an endless dark tunnel. I was then reminded of what I said once in a sharing during community session about why we are still in Community after so many years. My love for you is as boundless as the ocean. When everyone thought that Jesus had died on the cross and it was over, he rose from the dead and it changed everything. As I was watching today, I  thought about all the students in our program who go through similar challenges; trying to achieve their dream of finishing high school, while working, taking care of a family, being fired and struggling to make ends meet. Am I reacting from a place of fear and excessive defensiveness? Unconditional Love. Finishing is as or even more meaningful than starting. What qualifies as success or failure is generally determined by immediate, tangible consequences. Me getting agitated, frustrated, angry and over-compensating were all symptoms of the deeper desire with me - the desire to be known.